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Drive

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Orange

Where are you going?

Where have you been?

How did we get here?

How should this begin?

I follow the tree line-

There are no signs. 

Speed up-

Slow Down-

Nobody is around. 

All I hear is wind –

But think about Last summers end.

I miss the grass- but I love the snow-

this doesn’t make sense.

I guess we will just enjoy the Show.

 

 

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That Inner Pendulum https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/31/that-inner-pendulum/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=that-inner-pendulum https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/31/that-inner-pendulum/?noamp=mobile#respond Sun, 01 Jan 2023 03:04:21 +0000 https://studiohumanzee.com/?p=7067

That Inner Pendulum

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The Mighty Humanzee

That Inner Pendulum

There’s an inner clock I have, and it’s tied to the Inner Pendulum of weather in this region.  Building up to Christmas we get The First Snow, as a kid I knew there was the magic of the holiday around the corner with a loafer dose of Winter Season.

But they taunted me, Winter, Wind and Rain.  Snow was delivered for sure, a hefty dump of powder atop roofs and pines. Cold mornings leading up to a Christmas Day celebration, each day a tease. Snow, always snow, yet there was dread too that young kids recognize. 

The Catskill Mountains can play a trick on a boy and get his heart set on winter adventure then yank it away from before he can hit the ski slopes. Or worse, rob him of the Magic White Winter with sudden arrival of The Thaw and The Rain.  Pendulum swinging suddenly back, changing your plans with a weather surprise.

The ebb and flow of temps always threatened to bring the Thaw before Saint Nick’s yearly debut, often he’d have just enough snow to deliver presents and scamper back up North before the Rain would hit. 

Once Nick became a faded myth I still fought my fear of the Thaw when I got older.  When Winter favored me, Christmas magic was replaced by the Winter Season and skiing. Being out there on a hill, speed and wind, the scrape of ice on edges, that was pure juice and fire for a kid.  My anxiety: The Rain and The Thaw would take that away before Christmas break ended.

To be sure in January Winter would make a comeback. While in school I knew weekends were my chance to be back out there. Skis crushing crust, scrape of a tail before averting a wipe out still awaited.  But to get that chance during Christmas?  Magic.



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Now that I’ve moved away, I’ve my own young blood who wants to be out there, and that pendulum swing between Thaw and Snow has a larger impact when it suddenly decides to move.  I moved on in life while my heart stayed here. I return in hopes to recapture that thrill of being the young blood I once was, and I have to laugh when my daughter eviscerates me with her wit to the laughter of my sister, or when my son rockets ahead on those slopes.  I moved on in life to good things, but life is moving on in ways I don’t want to recognize.

So I plan, I have that sixth sense in me you know.  I know when I can get that last ski day in during Christmas before the Thaw and the Rain.  I’m not shy in sharing that last year I knew we were not going to beat that Pendulum swing from The First Snow to The Rain.  Last year it rained on Christmas, then froze enough that night for us to try to ski the next day.  My instincts said “You can’t beat the Pendulum”.    Ice did a number on me and BOOM off a ledge I went, earning a broken ankle as a badge of “courage”.  I knew that Pendulum had swung back, but I ignored it.  Got lucky, but not lucky enough.

But we’re back in my Catskills this year, and I was back out on those slopes.  I knew the Pendulum was going to swing back, but nailed the timing before the Thaw and the Rain.  Made a comeback in many ways, connected with family I hadn’t seen since COVID.  We walked to the Lake today, ignoring The Rain as my son and daughter learned more about this region where I was raised.  The Rain and The Thaw spurred some tales of local lore I passed on to them.  The dark gloom of The Thaw helped me paint a picture of why I loved this region.  I taught them about the Pendulum.  My son got it, my daughter just laughed.  See these shores?  I can tell them the history of these shores and waters, relay stories about our family history.  

Look at that tranquil cold water, there are a few straw ducks still hanging around.  We can hear black crows squawking as they flit from tree to tree.  My son is planning his own trip back to my Catskills this coming summer.  He wants to make the journey alone.  I think he wants to develop his own inner clock.  The Pendulum has swung, holiday is over, The Thaw and The Rain is here, you can see it in the photo.  I must leave as I have always done for years now.  He’ll be back, he’ll find his own sense of a pulse to this region.  I know the Winter Season excites him, I hope there is more here that connects with him.  My home, that shaped me.  




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Summits You Will Find https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/23/summits-you-will-find/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=summits-you-will-find https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/23/summits-you-will-find/?noamp=mobile#respond Fri, 23 Dec 2022 16:12:47 +0000 https://studiohumanzee.com/?p=7048

Summits You Will Find

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The Mighty Humanzee

Summits You Will Find

You climbed that hill that no one else will
Left a lonely path in the snow right behind you
Your quest brought you to a new trail again
In the hope that your past will cease to confine you

Don’t Pretend you’re alone
World set against you – so why be alone
You have that certain image that only you deserve the throne
If you just struggle longer it’s the prize you’ll truly own

So many short cuts you saw along the way
Easier steps for others that never cease to remind you
That expediency is merely a weakling’s way
Of pretending your past is far behind you

Scale the heights alone
Go for it do it on your own
Embrace the vivid image that your visions have shown
If you just struggle a bit longer it’s the prize you’ll truly own

You drive that dream to such an extreme
That you think you’ve carved images, left them in line behind you
Now that you’re here you need a reminder
To enjoy this view that surrounds you.

You scaled the heights alone
Climbed this rock alone
Remember you carved some images for others
Good seeds you have sewn 

Didn’t really go alone
Invited others too – this time not alone
Offered your hand to others
Decided to share this throne

Offered your hand to others
Found companions of your own

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Orange

Lulled by musings of a New Breed-

Morphed to be defined by human need. 

But I like the cool,

a calm soft breeze. 

Without care-

Rugged and sure of a wilderness serene. 

I’m sure no one realizes that my adaption is final-

Sitting in the sun- amongst the trees 

-the Tallest of shadows with slight ease.

A tree line stare with a thousand printed smiles- they cast a call on bended knee- asking if I’m worthy to be of their breed.

I will Mush-thru narrowly wooded brush- Keeping my distance and pushing till dusk. 

I do not have a name-I am one of many- We Win, We Hurt-Victory is pain.

 

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Blackbird: A Musical Gift https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/20/blackbird/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=blackbird https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/20/blackbird/?noamp=mobile#respond Tue, 20 Dec 2022 17:10:34 +0000 https://www.studiohumanzee.com/?p=7006

Blackbird: A Musical Gift

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The Mighty Humanzee

How was I maneuvered into this?  Two lovely ladies I know, Molly and O, were discussing the song Blackbird by Paul McCartney.  O had found a beautiful rendition on piano, and I chimed in with “that’s unusual, it’s a song primarily for guitar.  It’s the first finger picking songs I learned on guitar.”

“Do you play on guitar”, asked Molly.  “Can you play this?  You have to do it for me.”

“Molly’s gonna sink Zee’s battleship,” added O.

What could I do?  I was maneuvered into a corner. 

“But I thought we were playing Name That Tune!” I answered, hoping to wiggle my way out of this. 

“BS! C-4,” answered O.  I think she enjoyed see me squeal. 

The year 2022 is the year of getting out of your comfort zone, and I always like to surprise people.  So my Christmas gift surprise for those two sweet ladies is my meager attempt at Blackbird.  Hope you enjoy.  And yes, Molly and O, thank you for sinking my battleship.

 

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Follow https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/follow/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=follow https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/follow/?noamp=mobile#respond Tue, 20 Dec 2022 02:08:51 +0000 https://studiohumanzee.com/?p=6992

Follow

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The Mighty Humanzee

Follow

Brother, will you follow me?
I was first on this earth
A few years before your birth
In those early remote days
I hoped you’d grow quicker and follow me in so many ways
You were tiny, sometimes my toy,
My brother a new baby boy
You couldn’t follow me then,
And sometimes I thought I saw you wish “Can I go, when?”

Brother, will you follow me?
I was first, drama and energy were my fame
You never complained, you followed all the same
I am here to blaze the trail in each and every case
You require so little from me, even when I treat you with very little grace
You are my foundation, and as I grow I’ve begun to see
That your love built possibilities for me

Brother I am glad you still follow me
I know I need you and am grateful you are here
You’ll never leave, you strong presence is ever near

My son, will you follow her?
I didn’t recognize back then that your quiet ways
Was a strength you loaned out to her even on the worst of days
Relaxed, easy going, and calm – things I am not that you freely gave to her
I thank God for you and the strength you loaned, you own needs you seemed to just defer
It’s not enough for me to say
That I didn’t realize the reserves you had after all you would give away

My son, will you follow her?
She’s a conundrum and you seem to able to see
Her failings and her possibility
You, to this very day
Insist that your bond is there to say
This I know is true
Because I also know and admire you

My son, will you still follow her?
I see you both ahead on the trail
And your dad, like all things on this Earth, will soon fail
But the tear you see in my eye
Is bittersweet, my job is complete as you watch you both pass me by
I am so glad I brought you here
So glad you follow her and hold her in your heart so dear

 

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Know https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/know/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=know https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/know/?noamp=mobile#respond Tue, 20 Dec 2022 01:22:00 +0000 https://www.studiohumanzee.com/?p=6971

Know

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The Mighty Humanzee

Know

Know that I am the fury bound up in the clouds bringing the storm
Know that I am the hope in what lies beyond those clouds, of brighter warmer days
Know that I am the mist and mystery and the foamy lake spit
Know that I am in the cry of the child’s voice drowned by the storm
Know that I am in the triumph of pride of a farther and in the joy of a mama’s voice
Know that I have been here before these waters formed
Know that I await, know that I persist long after loved ones are gone.

Know that I am here.

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Taking Stock https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/taking-stock/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=taking-stock https://studiohumanzee.com/2022/12/19/taking-stock/?noamp=mobile#respond Tue, 20 Dec 2022 01:01:01 +0000 https://www.studiohumanzee.com/?p=6938

Taking Stock

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The Mighty Humanzee

Taking Stock

I did that, I made those marks.
My feet, my path, it’s my history I left when I was trying to escape.
I do want to be here and lose myself in the fresh new season, but this crisp beauty is marred slightly by my tread.
Did I do that the other day, tread too lightly, stomped too loud?
That’s the past and the footprints I left are just echoes, dents in others emotions.
Remnants of someone who went before you.

I did those, I will do more, just to be in the cold, just to be alone.
Just to make my way, leaving marks, dents in the snow, the others I encountered are embellished by my presence as I leave a mark.

And look at my path – I rose, I climbed. For today, at least, you’ll sense that mystery.
I was first and I see that I made an impression, although the signs will soon pass.
But maybe I should look up, feel the cold, love the new crisp bitter winds.
That chance will pass but I won’t miss it.

I, alone, am here.
But the snow doesn’t care, doesn’t mind me at all.

.Without this snow, you wouldn’t have known I was even here.
Funny – dark winter comes, hibernation and long sleep time, yet that’s when the signs of my course are easiest to see.

There’s irony in that.
Some are turning away from looking from where they just came, it’s cold, they flee to huddle inside.
I am out here, winter is my time.
I run to this spot, need to pass through, see no signs of others and leave my mark.
If you didn’t pay attention you might not see those foot falls, but they’re right there.

 

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